Rolling Stones again

The Rolling Stones are coming to Halifax. I haven't bought a ticket. I'm not planning to go. There's a few reasons not to go.

I saw the Stones last year in Moncton. That was an awesome time. The best time I had in how many years, 5, 10, 20, ever? I was a bit concerned seeing them again this year would somewhat detract from those larger than life memories from last year. It wasn't just the concert itself, which was mind-blowing. It was the reconnecting with old friends too. But I could just view it as just a separate fun thing. It wouldn't have to live up to last year.

The reality is I just can't afford to go, which sucks. But I'm not too disappointed. I did get to experience the awesome life memory last year so I'll always have that. Paint it Black live was incredible.

Idiot play

A little while back I did something I shouldn't have. I experienced an unexpected disappointment, a setback. I reacted by being rude to the person who delivered the bad news.

So for a moment I became an idiot. That's what idiots do. They lash out and unload when things don't go their way. I will say that the issue I was upset about is totally unfair and unjust to me. Yes I should be angry, resentful and frustrated about that situation. But that doesn't justify how I acted. That's what idiots do. They make excuses after the fact for their actions. They insist they were "reacting", or "provoked" or "stressed about other things". So I don't have a valid excuse for what I did because there is no valid excuse.

I don't claim to be a "nice" person. I don't have to be or want to be. I don't want to go the other way and be an idiot. If you act like an idiot then you are an idiot.

What I need to do is to address and fix the problems that I lashed out about.